I stopped blogging. I quit Facebook. I avoided e-mail and phone calls. I prayed. I read. I tried to create some silence in my life, and it was wonderful.
There has always been this polarity in my personality that I could never quite understand.
I'm a very sociable person. I love parties. I love meeting new people. I love talking about "the big stuff" in life-- what really matters. I love discussions involving God, religion, or politics (especially with my brainiac husband) . I even love it when my kids are loud, and boy, they are LOUD!!! I love their laughter, their screams, and squeals of delight. I love listening to my 4-year-old daughter play in a magical princess and pony filled make-believe land. I love listening to my almost 2-year-old son sing his ABCs or better yet, I love hearing him say, "Mommy!" when I walk into the room. I love the coos of my 2-month-old baby boy.
I also love silence. There are times when I just need to be alone. I need time to think, pray, reflect. My husband will tease me and tell me I'm anti-social. I will tell my daughter I'm in "time out." I will neglect phone calls, texts, e-mails, and invitations...because I need silence. I will admit I always thought that was a rather odd part of my personality.
I find myself discovering that purposeful silence is a very good thing. It is in those moments that we slow down and appreciate the beauty and wonder of the world. Bees faithfully pollinating flowers, helping beautiful plants to grow. A dog snoring on the couch in contentment. The beauty of the sky. The warmth of the sun. A moment of quiet reflection with God replenishing our soul.